Been too long

Hello blog world......

  It's been so long!Way way too long since I've graces these pages.Well I'm well into in my last trimester......at 36 weeks and 4 days the final count down has started.Its actually quite bittersweet though......i absolutely cannot wait to see my Baby girl but at the same time I'm gonna miss our bump time together you know? Like it's just been her and I for so long .... now she's coming out into this world and I gotta share her a lil bit 😕😔 .BUT I can't wait to see her little face n kiss her cheeks and see who she looks like the most n watch her bond with her daddy.Heck I just wanna hold her in my arms and never put her down!.
    So that's really the gist of my life at the moment......patiently preparing for and awaiting my blessing coz truly God has blessed me more than I can express!I never imagined I'd be finishing this year as a mother because of different reasons but somehow he kept his promise to make me a mommy at 32.....😊.It warms my heart to know that He will never fail me and that he has not forgotten me inspite of.And so I continue to dream and pray that his will be done as promised.

Well now I must take my leave as we require our daily nap session.

Be Blessed! Be a Blessing! Love!😗😗😗

Last trimester

Dearest blog world.......

I have been away for about a month....I've just been chillin n getting bigger....and sleeping and eating.I legit take 2-3 naps on a good day but thankfully I sleep better at nights well except for the bathroom breaks where i try to stay in sleep mode if that makes any kinda sense 😁.......I swear if i can sleep while eating,sleep while reading.....i'd be way more productive mais c'est la vie! Life has been more relaxed these days......just anxiously awaiting my baby girl ☺.Everything else I'm taking with a grain of salt and trying to let go of the icky stuff along the way.

   Atm I'm quite fatigued to be honest  😩😪 So until next time.........

Be Blessed! Be a Blessing! Love! 😙😙😙

Dreaming in real life

See there are on so many things about life that I didn't know and you know what? I still don't know a whole lot about what the future holds for me.Yet what I always knew was the kind of Mother and Wife I wanted to be because if nothing else.....these have always been the contents of my dreams.I always knew I would have children to watch grow while loving them endlessly....and I always knew I wanted to have a husband to love and protect us as a unit. Now with my Baby girl on the way,it's half of my dream being fulfilled....as I said I don't know what else will be revealed however of this I'm confident.....God doesn't put these desires in our souls for naught.I strongly believe that he really had given us from birth the knowledge and strength for the life he has prepared before us.We may not know what the future looks like or what roads we will take to reach our destination however he knows.And that....well that is all the hope I need to hold on to the promises of tomorrow.
   Now don't get me wrong,some days I'm hopeless and feel absolutely helpless when it comes having Faith and Hope but then I remember how He loves us.....i remember that even when we don't deserve it His mercy allows us to have favor! So every opportunity I have, I pray for his Mercy and his Favor in my life because I truly believe with all my heart that he has my best interests at heart. Although we do have the option of choice...which can highly affect the length of the battles we face...at some point realization will hit and you will see that you have had what you needed all along to not have to run around that mountain a gazillion times.Coz I've noticed even within myself I've had to jog,walk,contemplate on the same issue more than a few times before It hits me......I could have got it right the first time around had I been silent.....had I used the wisdom and knowledge He has instilled in me from birth. But it doesn't matter how long it takes....when that clarity hits home.....You will see how loved you have been! So loved that he is patient and never hateful towards us no matter how many times we mess  up a perfectly good existence ......That"s God! That's Love!
Nehoosers hopefully if you're reading this you've managed to take a word or two from my spew. Until next time..........

Be Blessed! Be a Blessing! Love! 😙😚

A new tide

Hello invisible friends 😊

So it's 11:11 am on May 22nd 2017.....that means good luck they say right? Although I'm more in need of God's (Luck)/Favor  right now.See it's been a trying few weeks and I can slowly feel the tides changing in the right direction that I need In order to just flow perfectly with it.I've been listening to Tasha Cobbs-Fill me up religiously for the past few days and it's been my source of 💪 when I've felt so hopeless.I have to keep reminding myself to not allow myself to be moved but to be thankful and trust it's always easier said than done because there's always these mini meltdowns that I have where I feel like I'm being overcrowded by every negative thought or emotion.However here I am still standing....still giving myself pep talks even through the 🌈 seems far away.One thing I'm confident of is God's Mercy,His never ending Love and Favor and His his Grace to me...to you...to Us and that....just turns my 🙁 to a 😊.
  Now to my most special little person.....she is growing and moving and making life a whole lot more meaningful everyday.She is making my purpose here more than just a person but I'm her person . I'm the one person that can never let her down in this lifetime......She's my purpose 😊. So as I patiently watch my baby girl continue to sprout....I prepare myself mentally,spiritually and emotionally to welcome her into my life.

Be Blessed! Be a Blessing! LOVE! 😚😚😚

Life's little blessings

Hello world,

      So I'm actually attempting to be consistent these days.....I can't believe we're already mid May 😯 and still no summer-like or even spring weather 😩.Its still feeling like we're stuck In the middle of mother nature's mood swings and she just ain't been feeling too 🌞 these days.Kinda like the mood I've been in the past few weeks.....it's been trying! But as always I have to believe in the morning after....in the 🍯 at the end of the 🌈.....in  the blessing that is growing and breathing inside me.
I'm learning so much about myself as time goes by.... I'm at a place in life that I've never visited before.It's just something really amazing that happens everytime I feel her little flutters.....as if to remind me that from this point on I'll never be alone 😊 and that is what makes the 🌫 drift away.Realizing that this itsy bitsy human has the power to make me glow everytime she moves...has me fighting so hard to make sure that when she gets here....she's got her 👪 .....these days my biggest pleasure is whispering sweet nothings to her coz she has managed to steal my very ❤ before I've even set eyes on her.Now isn't that some kinda wonderful??😏
Can you tell I'm positively addicted to my ❤ bug?? Ok fine I'll stop for a minute just to say my piece........ Instead of focusing on  what's missing in your life,Write down all the things that you do have! I had a moment the other night when I realized the reason I was in such a negative space was really because i haven't   been very  thankful....so I took a minute to thank God for the love I do have around me and within me... the opportunities...the favour he's bestowed and all them "little" things that I somehow chose to ignore while being so determined to fix what was not there. Just take a minute to write down a list of all the things that get forgotten on a daily basis as we run through life searching for what we already have!.Remember every single day you are Blessed and watch how his Favour continues to shine down on you. In order to get ALOT ..... you must learn to appreciate the little.
That's all for today!.

Be Blessed!  Be a Blessing! LOVE!  😚

Love letter to my ❤ bug.

As I lie here looking at your picture,I can't help but smile knowing you're truly just chillin....hopefully as excited to be in my arms as I've been to hold you and kiss you silly.😊 Even in the bigger picture that is my life Everything else is miniscule compared to you my dear......Because if I've done nothing else right,you're the only masterpiece that matters.So we've been rolling deep for about 19 weeks me and you,And with every glimpse I get of you my heart skips a thousand beats and I don't mean to lay it on too thick but baby girl you're the reason I'm smiling right now.Can you keep a secret? I fell in love with you the minute I heard your heart beat go 💓.....so I can but  only imagine how my ❤ will overflow when I get to look at your lil face live and direct.Just promise me this love....Promise me that you'll let me love you thoroughly and know that even when the world is crumbling around us I will keep you grounded.Words simply cannot begin to express the levels of LOVE that fills me as you continue to grow inside me.....the one I hold nearest and dearest.....you literally know me from inside out 😊😍 Now tell me who/what can beat that? None! So my little ❤ bug this is just one of many letters I hope you'll read one day if ever you need to be reminded where we started....Always in my heart....Always on my mind....Always my little lady bug.

Love,
  Mommy.

Be Blessed! Be a Blessing! Love! 😚😙

Journey of a lifetime.

Hello world or maybe I should just say hello me.....as I'm quite sure thar I'm the sole reader of my blog.So let's just decide that I'm really coo coo and I write memos to myself at certain points in the year 😏
Nehoosers in the event that someone is actually reading along with me I'll continue to use proper English 90% of the time.So what's been going on?? Adjusting to life's changes,tryna figure out my next steps and tryna keep my head above water so as not to drown in the midst of it all.What I'm learning as I rise n sink into deeper waters is to look ahead.It has kinda been my mantra these past few months.....There's always sunshine after the storms  coz nothing lasts forever and so I look through the clouds for the 🌈.As the colors become more and more vivid before finally clearing I breathe a sigh of relief because the 🌝 is about to appear in all its glory.Have you ever noticed how peaceful and light it feels after the rains have passed.....that calm as the rainbow rises that says better skies are coming!. 😊 So I continue peeking .... hoping to catch a glimpse of hope through the messiness that is life.Now as I drift off to dreamland I hope I've left a word that will somehow encourage you to Hope and have Faith in knowing this too shall pass.

Be Blessed! Be a Blessing! Love! 😚