The Lesson of Love :Part 2

Hi everyone 😊,

With Christmas around the corner .....I have nothing but joy,joy,joy down  in my heart. Maybe it has something to do with the warm temperatures we've been having...I'm still wondering if I will get to see a white Christmas this year at all.😕
     On to the topic at hand ....Where do I start? I remember  when I had my very first crush....I was in grade school/elementary/primary school and I remember  his face  to this day....I had no clue what it meant just that whenever I saw him I wanted him to notice me.Lol Now fast forward 20 years and much haven't really  changed. Relationships have been a roller coaster for me,I mean I've had the good,the bad and the was I drugged the entire time ??😆😅 But I can tell you that there have been two people I've been "in love" with who have somehow shook me to the core and made me 1.Question myself and 2.Question the notion of "Love" ever after.See,there was the story of unrequited love....the kinda love where I settled for someone that served no concrete purpose or planted roots in my life.I remember walking away and feeling totally lost as a result of "Loving the wrong person right".You know how they always say we love the ones who hurt us and hurt the ones who love us??Hmmmmmmmmm "They" didn't lie.....I think at that point in time,I lost my faith in LOVE....and that's when I found God.So you really have to hit rock bottom to be able to see the top.Finding a relationship with God in 2009 was exactly what I needed  to find myself again,to figure out who I was after I had done all these things I'd told myself I would never do!.After i's accepted things i never wanted!.See when you've actually crossed the lines you vowed you  never would ... I was absolutely lost...All in the quest to loved!.See,I've always had a fairytale notion when it comes to LOVE...Boy meets girl,Boy dates girl,Boy and girl  make babies and live happily ever after.In the real world that Idea I've carried with me was but a dream and so I thought maybe if I just stopped wanting ...stopped loving...maybe then I wouldn't be dissapointed but see what I learned is that if God is able to LOVE me unconditionally and if he has put that kind of LOVE in my heart then it means that he's also placed someone just like me who craves the same thing that I do and so......He sent me "LOVE ".....right when I was about to give up on my happily ever after he sent me a man that was able to love me.I mean not just like me for a few  months or stick around for a season but someone who loved just the way I did!And I believe that was his gift to me.....to remind me that I'm worthy of everything I expect!And that settling for less is never an option!.Now I've been loved thoroughly....And just like most things ,People come for a purpose and a reason and then they move on....So now being where I am today....I can look back and see the true value of real love!Now If something doesn't feel right...I get antsy.If I have to question someone's commitment .... I start retreating.What dishonor  it would be for me to settle for some half assed attempt at "Love" "Like" "Infatuation " after the bar has been set so high?? 💡 See,I've given chances to people who should have never gotten a second look and I've learned that even that  is okay because we all have a journey and so we all play a role In each other's lesson.So just like I've been taught to only accept that which my heart desires and maybe just maybe have a little faith in the LOVE I preach.....maybe I can teach someone how to ❤.
     Before you take my word for it.....Disclaimer:I do not know it all....and some days I forget all that I've learned and settle for a moment but my heart won't allow the betrayal and so I knock myself up the head when need be so I don't fall too far into the bootleg kinda love that people give so freely.At the end of the day as I always say LOVE!It's better to take the risk than spend your life wondering what if..........
   I hope I make sense to someone...or at least I hope I've given you enough of a peek into my heart.Be Blessed!Be a Blessing! LOVE! 😙

🎄Happy Holidays to you and yours! 🎄

The Lesson of Love: Part 1

Ok so on my mind this morning is a discussion I've had with myself and with others.In this first part I want to take a minute to delve into "Self Love" and as the week goes by I'll come back and talk with you about the other types of Love relationships we seek........
     Now I have to start from the root before I can get to the top.As a young woman I remember feeling unsure and uncomfortable  in my own skin,growing up I was a skinny black girl with no booty (Still ain't got much booty 😆).And we all know that black women  are "Supposed" to have a big Ole but in order to be "attractive " or "sexy" or "Black"😅.......See between the ages of 16-25 I went through many phases of insecurity about my body and my self worth and as a result of a lack in confidence in both I made some choices that perhaps had I been more grounded in "Self" I would not have made.See,what I've learned as a result is to know who I am and what I will or will not stand for and to be confident that the person I am is deserving of everything I can imagine  to be.But,when you are low on "Self".....you gravitate towards anything and anyone who shows you even for a minute anything else....and I believe it goes back to childhood,as does everything  else.As a young girl growing up,I wasn't  told I was beautiful, I wasn't  told I was loved,I didn't see any positive kind of loving relationship  that I could have taken from and mirrored in my own journey.Instead I got lost in books and my own personal view of what love looks like to me.What I saw is the type of attention  one got for looking a certain way.....now don't get me wrong if you asked me how I felt about myself I would say I was the Ish!.However I guess like every young girl at that age,the insecurities would come to visit and sometimes move in for a while.We live in a generation that is built on a certain look and a certain type of lifestyle and really no foundation that teaches our young girls how to value themselves and the majority of us are coming from a household that is lacking in that department.
    I'm not ashamed to say that once upon a time I was that young girl who settled for and did things because I didn't truly love or value myself....I mean I didn't hate myself but if you understand where I'm coming from then you know that when you grow up in a home without a father or any type of positive image of how you are to be treated as a woman by a man....You have to figure that out for yourself!.And,for some that means that we will go out looking for the kind of love that we didn't get to experience as a child in all the wrong places,from all the wrong types of men and as a result end up way more F-d up than when you started coz see,when you give of yourself,Your love,Your Body,Your spirit....it literally drains you some and you're left with a little less than you started with and remember  you didn't start with much in the beginning so if you don't take the time to actually build up yourself from the inside out and you keep giving  of Yourself to someone that does not feed you with what you truly need but simply robs you of your essence then you are left Empty!Then the cycle repeats itself because see,you were never supposed to be looking for that from someone else what is already inside of you!Do u hear me though??I believe our father created us with enough but as parents we are to help our child to concrete that type of love by showing us exactly what it looks like and then as young women we will be more grounded in our "Self" to know what is right and what is not okay to accept!.And the same goes for our young men......It's a sick cycle that has no end until we all individually come to that place of reflection and actually  want more of what we were born to have.Self worth,Self value,Self confidence......Self Love!.Because before you can even give true love to another human ,you have to first be grounded in who you are and in turn that person must be at that place as well.So I beg you....young woman,young man,grown folks who have little hearts to nurture to try to focus less on making sure your child has all the best brand names and instead  Focus on feeding their hearts and their minds and their spirits so in  turn they will feed every person they meet with "Love Unconditional " .Let's end the cycle of young girls looking for love from young boys who don't know what love looks like who then turns into grown folks raising children with no foundation to stand on and then it starts all over again..........😕.
   This was a bit heavy I know but I've always spoken LOVE  above all else because I truly believe the key to every issue is to Love first and everything else comes secondary.So why not start from the root.......water the core,prune it,weed it out so that when it breaks ground......you're  prepared to grow and feed others.That's all for now.Be Blessed!Be a Blessing!LOVE! 😙

Reflections

Hey blog world!......

I'm coming at you live and direct from Mee Mee Ville. ...How are ya'll  doing?It's been a long 2 weeks for me,Although outside of work I feel like I have absolutely no kinda life whatsoever  😕 BUT it's all good!After being away for 2 years in sunshine n coconut trees and miles upon miles of ocean ,it's good to be back In the land of ice and snow.😅I feel that I definitely  needed to go back to St Vincent to become a real vincy 🙈.....The way I look at life is that for every season,every opportunity  that comes..... it's meant to happen and in the process we may not even know why it did but  trust that you'll be able to look back on it and see the process and the purpose behind every little thing that you go through.Thats God! Always teaching.So the question  is how open are we to learning?  Sometimes I see myself running around the same mountain  over and over again simply because i refuse to accept the lesson and grow from it BUT when I finally make the climb and look down on the journey. .....once again That's  God!I think the biggest realization  I've had is that life itself is like an obstacle  course...there will be hurdles, you will have to jump,roll and skip and climb...it's not meant to break you but to build you into the very best version of yourself. SO my fellow champions. ....Never allow yourself to give in!Coz the prize is right around the corner. Now back to work I go.Be Blessed!Be a Blessing! LOVE! 😙

Soul searching.

Hi everyone 😊

   What it do tho?!😅😜 I'm in a space of reflection today.......I've been thinking n wondering n brewing n bubbling over the top with thoughts.I literally feel my soul tugging at my sleeves for some attention.Being a busy  body sometimes means that I will neglect the energy that emanates from within and then I get detached from the very roots that keep me grounded.
     What I've come to recognize are the many changes that have happened  to me that have irrevocably shifted the ME that I was.I've  been beautifully  ruined by "Life"......I see beauty in it because amidst the ruins,I know that somewhere  beneath the rummage I'll be renewed.In order to find yourself you literally have to lose sight of the person you thought/claimed to be.It's taken me this long to fully realize that being "lost" is a good thing!You feel me???I mean think about it for a good minute.......you done? ☺ I look back on life every now n then to see the changes throughout the years......the little girl,the adolescent,the young woman who is growing into another type of woman.....some days I don't recognize her one bit and ain't too pleased but almost always I can see through the muck long enough to see visions of "Her"......That woman who sways with her insecurities  yet is so grounded in her absolute knowledge of self that she dances through it all.😕 If that makes some kinda sense at all........lol . Je dois partir.
           If you can take something from my "spew" then my job is done! Be Blessed!Be a Blessing!  LOVE!😙 Tooooooodles

Simple pleasures.

Good morninggggggggg 😊

     So how ya'll  doing?lol I'm  just wondering if I'm the only one reading my posts??Say it ain't so!😕😁 Anyhooosers I'm literally chillin right this minute....today is my day off and I'm just looking forward to seeing my boo boo later for some girl time 👭.....It's officially winter  in my city...getting colder as the days go by BUT  it's all good!Christmas is right around the corner and it's one of my most fave times of the year.......Snow and love  and cozy nights and family time and ginger tea and........all the things that make this weather tolerable...to say the very least.
      I just want to take a minute to thank Jehovah and the Universe for the light n love n blessings on blessings on blessings..........I've learned that the right people come into our lives right when we need them and although not everyone lasts through the years,some actually withstand  the tests of time.What I've learned most in life is to ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS live in your truth!It may not be the person/place/moment that truly exemplifies who you want to be but gosh dang.... when you're  able to move past one crappy moment into a beautiful horizon of  perfect peace ......it's amazing!I've learnt that everything takes Time......To learn,To grow,To improve, To see things actually come to fruition.....Time is the only thing  that really shows us the truth in every situation.So,when it starts to rain  I've learnt to dance while I get wet and when the sun is beating down on my face I've learnt to bask in the rays of the sunlight and when the winds get to blowing I've learnt to not fight against it but to sway......because somehow  Life is working with me to reveal the very best parts of me.So,why fight through it when I can just flow with it???
  That's all for today! If you're reading this.....Thank you!. 😙 Be Blessed!Be a Blessing!  Spread LOVE Always!.💞
     

"Early to bed....early to rise"

What's up ya'll???

   Gooooood  morning!This is an early one as I know I've been slacking on my blogging duties.....I'm headed to work and the lights are still on 😕 and by the time I do leave work the lights are back on.So I don't  know daylight really until my days off. #Vampirelife?? 😆😅 Nehooooos  I must say I'm feeling pretty good about winter so far.We had a lil but of flurries about a week ago...🎤week ago🎤.....and I just can't wait for the first snow day!I'm probably  the only one in Montreal  saying that but I've missed two winters so ya know....I just wanna frolick in the snow for a minute.......
  The other day I was tossing and turning in bed as I usually  do when thoughts are playing hide n seek in my mind....and that's normally  when I'm feeling kind of stagnant in life. It's like my dreams come a knocking to remind me that there's still so much that I want to accomplish before I become an old lady.  😆😜 So making movement every chance I get is optimal in actually  getting to where I want to be while I still have air in my lungs. I've been toying with the idea of vlogging  for some time now and I keep procrastinating about it  coz I'm like who's gonna wanna watch me???😄....then I remember how fabulously ..wonderfully charming I can be and I start dreaming all over again. So now that I have spoken it.....the universe will work with me to get it! Inshallah! 🙏
   I guess if I can leave anything with you today is that It's truly never too late to Strive...to achieve  and when opportunity  strikes,it would be a dishonor  to the universe to not grab it and ride it till the wheels fall off.....Be blessed! Be a Blessing! 😘

Quick hello

Hi ya'll........

           Just wanted to drop in and leave a mark real quick. It's been a long week  but finally my weekend is here! Yay!!!! Honestly I don't have much to share.....probably  because  I'm in a chillax  mode and feeling like just being in my zone u til further notice.I will be meal prepping tomorrow  (inshallah) so that might be more interesting.......sooooo until then ya'll ✌

Long cold days n endless nights

Hello world,

Been gone for a minute but I'm still here 😊.The last two weeks have been busy for me.....I'm working new hours so I officially  barely exist in social  media.....except for instagram. I don't  know if it's an age thing or probably  just the fact that I've somehow changed internally but I no longer feel bothered to keep up with certain people . I'm trying to maintain  my spiritual  self so in the process I see some things falling by the way side as a result and I'm totally  fine with it.
  God has a way of showing  you what you need to see when you ask and I'm too old to be in the wrong situations.Like there's absolutely  no excuse for settling for a relationship  or friendship  that does not serve you or enhance you emotionally,or encourages your spirituality.What I've  come to learn Is that it's okay to walk alone....it's okay to put yourself  first and by that I mean it's okay to work on you even if that means that you'll  be having dinner alone every night or the only person you share your moments with is God. 😊 😊😊😊
It seems the closer I get to my inner self the higher my standards go....and the shorter my patience for things n people who do not serve or help to fulfill my purpose. So in the meantime i'm just choosing to water my own garden,make sure that it's blooming before I can invite anyone in to enjoy it.....and even then I get to be extra picky about who I allow to enter my space.Yes.....it's okay to be more than a lil picky  because not everyone  you encounter is gonna be wishing you well so protect your spirit and make sure that you are the light amidst all the darkness you encounter . That's all for today.....God bless  you!Be a Blessing n continue to Strive! Toodlesssss
                                                         With Love,
                                                          Mee Mee.

Last days of sunshine

Hey ya'll,

Today was an absolutely  awesome day.....sun was out,my hair was laid n I had the most deeeeelicious burger EVER.Lol But on the real tho....I can't believe we're  at the end of September  already 😠 Time is flying but I'm so happy that mother nature is blessing us with some warmth this late in the month!.......So I discovered the best fruit n veggie store in Montreal ...Sami Fruits on the east side is jam packed with every fruit and vegetable you can think of and the prices are superb!I bought a gigantic juicy  watermelon and picked up some bell peppers to try a stuffed pepper recipe I've been dying to make....😋😋😋
  In other news.......I'm just in a space of gratitude and positivity because I had a bit of a breakthrough  this week after taking some time to do some introspection coz I was in such a gloom and desperately  needed some rejuvenation.I just took a moment to reminisce on how far I've come and focus on where I need to be and most of all be appreciative  of the few people in my life who love me in spite of!.With that said,I'm learning to move past any situation/person/thing that takes away from my "Zen" and maintaining an environment  of growth.
  I hope that these little tidbits will somehow encourage or amuse you in some way.😊Until next week.....Be Blessed  n most importantly Be A Blessing! 😘
                                            Mee Mee.

New beginnings

Soooo......

  Blogging has been the last thing on my list as of late but still always on my mind tryna figure out how I can make it "grand".Life has been messy with some tidbits of goodness sprinkled in between 😕😉😄.Being back in the city with so much more opportunities at my door I'm simply trying to figure out my steps and just LIVE!.In the meantime i'm focused on taking baby steps towards the direction that my heart leads.....and whereever it leads there shall i go.Trust me when i say half the time I have no clue where that is so I just trust that jehovah is working it all out behind the scenes.Thats what keeps me going......well..that and my unborn babies 👶👶👶....I've  waited so long to be a mother and I can't  wait to lay all this lovin on the ones who will be worth every single ounce of it.Success looks so different for all of us,while I do believe in having a good career,a degreebor two and being able to travel this world of ours......life wouldn't be complete for me if I didn't have the pleasure of being an awesome mommy to my mini me's and wifey to my soulmate.That for me is the cake and the icing on top 😍.....So whilst I await my white picket fence dream I will continue to work at me....growing....learning .....believing in the happily ever after...........Thats all for now......Be Blessed!Be Encouraged!Be a Blessing! 😘

Peek-A-Boo

Hey guys,

  It's been over a year since my last post....Sooooo many changes and so many lessons and so so much to be thankful for,we'll play catch up in a little bit....Yes i'm terrible at blogging but I'M BACKKKKKK!!!!!! (hideface)....I have soooooo much plans to improve my blog and get things Poppin lol so buckle your seat belts....the ride is about to get interesting!. ;-) Toodlesss
                                                                                                                                Mee Mee